Crazier and crazier - thought I had posted this and somehow it slipped through the net

Things have been getting crazier and crazier. I cant wait to go. I wish I was leaving tomorrow. Things are sorted, what I need to take with me is almost packed. The idea of the next five days at work is horrendous. I am over it already. Done. I know they are really going to drag.

I have been relucant to post recently as I have been reading lots of blogs and so many of them seem to be written by desperately unhappy lost souls trying to reconcile their life to themselves with an element of humour over the internet. I had no idea so many people were so unhappy. Its painful to read so many of them. I am glad they have a forum for their misery and a way of expressing it but I dont ever want this to become like that. Its made me feel a little insecure about the things I have been posting here, perhaps insecure is the wrong word - shakey.... People judge and I do feel like in these posts I have been sort of baring myself. Exposing myself to the elements of the internet. Its a funny idea isn't it? Slightly ironic as my last post was the realisation I am caring less what other people think, but our humanity is in our contradictions after all.

Where was I?
SO EXCITED!!!! It's unbelievable. Its starting to feel real. This thing that was an idea is happening, or the first stage is starting to happen. I am going to mexico in 17 days. This time in 17 days time I will be landing in cancun and making my way down the coast to Playa. Later in the evening I will be wiggling my toes in the sand before my first swim. Yes. I am going swimming on my first evening. It is, after all, the start of the rest of my life. No melodrama here - clearly!

Things have happened this week that have been even more affirmative that I am making the right choice. I see so many messed up relationships in London. People that clearly love each other and yet somehow find themselves in a downward spiral of unhappieness and discontent. How does that happen? I mean we are all adults. We all know we need to step away when that happens, but so often it becomes a cycle of madness.