Practise. Practise. Practise.

I am sick. Or getting sick and have been at work today spending most of the day feeling like I want to pass out. You think perhaps my body is trying to tell me something?

I am physically and emotionally exhausted and not sleeping very well. I need to rest and regroup. Part of me feels like this might not be possible until I get to Mexico and leave some of the stuff behind. I feel like I have a lot of background noise in my subconscious right now. Make any sense? I cant wait for my life to become a little simpler.

This week I realised how many things I would love to have in my life but that have been on hold as a result  of living and being in London. I can get a puppy if I want, for example, not suggesting for the moment that I am going to do this, but the point is I will have the option and the time. It's something I wouldn't feel able to do if I carried on with my life here - it wouldn't be fair on the dog, and suddenly now its an option. It has made me realise there are literally hundreds of things I haven't been doing that I would like to do because the don't work with my current life. The realisation that I am now able to choose again is incredible. Things I had even forgotten or blocked out that I wanted.

Someone spoke to me this week about synchronicity, and it does feel like the more I am following my heart on what to do the more things are melding together and aligning. Parts of my life are tying together and even the people I am meeting and speaking to, well the group is evolving to include more and more kindred spirits. Its amazing to observe and gives me, I don't know, gives me hope? Maintains my faith? It gives me something pretty awesome anyway.

I don't know if as a reader there are recurring themes in this journey to you so far but it feels like there are some to me and I kind of want to regroup them here, not just because my brain is fried but also because I do feel like I am achieving something by writing this and I want to highlight the different topics and perhaps more importantly, note the ones I am avoiding(?) Intention and belief being the biggest one and the one that I think I am going to be tested on the most in the coming year. Letting go and moving on. Admitting when something isn't working and being prepared to change. Compassion and honesty - which this week has been more about me vocalising my feelings clearly than anything else. Friendships, relationships, love and communication in general. Balance. The biggest one I haven't touched on, not really in any event, faith.

Like the yoga, for all of these things I just need to PRACTISE. Keep the intention and keep practising.


Like the first yoga sutra Atha Yoganushasanam with translated means: 
Atha - now, Yoga - science of Yoga, Anushasanam - Discipline or set of instructions 


OR 
Now, (start with) the discipline of yoga.